Thursday, 14 November 2013

14

So, this is just a random short-ish story I wrote just for the sake of it. If anyone happens to be reading feel free to give feedback. 


She was the girl 76 couldn’t help but notice. She was always there, going through the motions day by day, like they all did. But she was different.  For a start, she didn’t respond to her number. Everyone else did. But not 14. She remained silent and solitary – she spoke not a word – and even the way she walked set her apart from the crowd. It was as if every step she took had a purpose that lay far beyond the walls of the Centre, a purpose that no one else could fathom. If the other digits were grey, she was blood red, and 76 was intrigued. He wanted to know what gears spun and whirred inside her mind that stopped her from laughing with the others through the humdrum of the daily routine.

Most of all, 76 was curious to know what force compelled 14 to remain lying, albeit shuddering violently, on the stiff white cover sheets of the experimental cots every day.

She would trudge obediently into the whitewashed labs alongside the other digits and lie down, usually in the adjacent cot to 76. She wouldn’t object when the Doctors fitted the ugly white headgear around her skull as if it were some ghastly torture instrument. In a way, 76 supposed, it was. He would watch her through the dark visor of his own clunky apparatus as she lay there, stock still, with every muscle in her body tensed. She didn’t talk up until activation, like the other digits; not once did her voice contribute to the mindless, droning babble that filled the labs.

And then, activation. The Doctors would push that little black button, and there would be sudden, inexplicable silence. Each and every digit would rise slowly until the lab was a mass of rigid bodies and white headpieces, standing in sporadic formation on the white linoleum floor. Then came the commands. They were different each day – 76 supposed the Doctor’s wanted to discover the extents to which the digits were mindlessly obedient. And if he thought about it hard enough – which he didn’t do often – he supposed it was rather cruel. But it never seemed cruel at the time. The commands of the Doctors simply washed through his mind, sweeter than the honey they were allowed on their porridge on Sunday, and never did he once consider disobeying the authoritative voice that swirled out of his earpiece. He felt nothing but calm, no matter the instruction.

He assumed all the other normal digits felt the same calm as him, the calm that soothed him into senselessly obeying every word, for every day the digits swarmed through the labs:

“Walk”.

“Run”.

“Scream”.

“Fight”.

They would all submit.

Except 14.

76 didn’t really think of her specifically during activation; his mind was inexplicably drawn into what seemed like one mass of thoughts – an entirety of motion and purpose that was possessive of all the digits collectively. However, he occasionally saw her out of the corner of his eye, still lying in her cot. She would tremble violently and clench her fists so tight that her fingernails drew blood from the paper-soft skin of her palms. She seemed to be resisting. 76 couldn’t understand why she would want to resist the soothing power of the honey-sweet voices, especially when it seemed to cause her so much pain. But resist she did, day after day, and slowly her face became sunken and her eyes lost their light and 76 came to think of her as the girl with the broken smile.

Once activation was over, the Doctors would always pay specific attention to 14. Every day they would poke her and prod her roughly, as though one day something would change, and they would suddenly understand what made her different from the other digits – different as white from black; sky from sea; blood from tears. They would interrogate her – talk softly to her, and when that didn’t work, scream at her.

“What are you doing?”

“Why don’t you move?”

“Say something, curse you!”

She remained silent.

76 did not know what he had expected to happen to 14. He didn’t think about it very much – he just expected the days to crawl by with their usual monotony, and he imagined 14 would simply… continue, like everyone and everything else in the Centre. But one day, it changed.

It was a hot, dry day and the sun beat down mercilessly on the grey concrete Centre and its inhabitants. As per usual, the digits strode into the labs; oblivious, mindless rows; and lay obediently down on the starched white sheets. Activation came, predictable as the rising of the cruel sun, and each digit succumbed to its grasp once more. 14 just lay there, trembling. And then came the command.

“Kill 21”.

Without a backwards glance or a step astray, the digits converged on 21. A small thread of doubt briefly wound through 76’s mind, but it evaporated in an instant, and his mind floated back to the seething mass that was the group. He obeyed the honey-voice without another thought.

21 did not resist – how could he? He began tearing at his own pale flesh with ragged fingernails as the other digits swarmed upon him like bees.

“Stop!”

The command rang out across the labs, the neon word ricocheting off the whitewashed walls, echoing with surprising timbre. It was not the voice of the Doctors, still every digit obeyed instantly. That one word was the single most beautiful sound 76 had ever heard. It brought images to his mind of glistening waterfalls and rainbow birds and majestic, expansive oceans – all of which he had never seen in his monotonous life. He spun around to see the source of the voice.

14.

She was standing, shaking violently like a leaf in the wind – a wind so foreign to the other digits that it was nigh on unimaginable – with an expression of disgust and utter loathing such as 76 had never laid eyes upon before.

“What are you doing?” she screamed. “How could you be so vile?”

Something stirred deep inside 76, something that he could not place.

“How can you just let them control you like that? It’s repulsive!” 76 could not banish the bizarre pictures that inundated his mind as 14 shouted. They were vivid pictures of another world, one that perhaps he had once known…

 All of a sudden, more Doctors than 76 knew existed flooded into the labs. One of them roughly hit 14 with a short, thin tube that abruptly burst with a sickly yellow light. She jerked violently and dropped to the floor.
The digits fiddled uncomfortably.

The shouts from the Doctors turned to incomprehensible clamour as the bewildered digits silently watched on, unsure of their task. Another flash of yellow light. 14 thrashed on the floor.

“14! You have one chance. Listen to me, one chance. You will live, if you kill 21,” boomed the head Doctor.
A black silence rushed through the room. The digits were becoming restless now.

Slowly, very, very slowly, 14 struggled to her feet.

“My name,” she declared, “is Emma”.

More stunned silence.

Buried far below 76’s deadened emotions was a memory, and it was fighting to resurface.

The Doctors leaped to action, as if they were of one mind. Perhaps, mused 76, they were. They ripped off 14’s – Emma’s – headpiece, as well as her shirt. They tore the grey garments into strips and bound and gagged her with them, leaving her standing – shaking and vulnerable – in her undergarments. She could barely put up a fight.

The Doctors turned to the other digits. “Forget everything you just witnessed”.

Something in 76 put up a one-second long struggle, before he succumbed once more to the honey-voices. His memories blurred and smudged into one long smear of murky brown, and suddenly he could not understand why 14 was bound, half-naked, in the centre of the room.

And so, the next instruction made no sense to him, but he obeyed anyway – mindless and oblivious.


“Kill 14”. 

Friday, 8 November 2013

Dangers of Dating a Smart Girl

Expectation:

You'll never understand a word she says. Formulas and theories and ideas you can't even fathom will tumble from her mouth in a spillage of excitement you could never understand over such things. She'll have no dress sense and won't know how to wear makeup and won't know how to kiss. There will be no time to go on dates because she'll be buried under her veritable mountains of books and won't surface until goodness-only-knows-when. Nothing exciting will happen because she's absorbed in study and you couldn't drag her out, no matter how hard you tried.

Reality:

She's just the same as any other girl. She's insecure, and just wants someone to make her feel beautiful. She wants someone to look behind the hours of work she puts into her perfect grades and see a scared, confused, self-conscious girl who wants someone to accept her. She wants to go for walks on the beach, hand in hand, watching the sun sink ever lower towards the horizon. She'll take time out of her constantly hectic schedule just to meet you at the park for a while. She wants someone to meet her at the door with flowers and unexpectedly tell her to put on her prettiest dress, and then take her out to dinner just because. All she wants is for someone to see that she's just the same as any other girl.

Monday, 28 October 2013

Well, I did warn that I'd post terribly infrequently... I've been 110% caught up in trying to keep up with eisteddfod/school work, and things like this seem slightly less important, strangely enough.
I have no idea what I intend to write here... perhaps it's a little pointless.
Oh, wait, here: have a drawing!
This is one of the few drawings I've attempted in coloured pencil, and is slightly strange. 
Make of it what you will.
^.^

Saturday, 19 October 2013

When did life become so vile that it stopped being OK to be individual? When did standing up for your opinions stop being praised? When did it start being  shouted at with a myriad of insults and looked down upon with the stares you read about in books that involve shooting daggers from the eyes? How is it that we're told to be ourselves one minute, and torn down for being ourselves with the turn of the clock?

Society's become a backwards place. It boldly declares to us that we should not be afraid to be who we are. We shouldn't put walls up to the world; instead we should tear them down and let those who would judge us see over the rubble - see past the masonry of makeup and the stonework of silence, the words we never spoke because we were too afraid of what they'd say.

But then, the minute the walls come down, instead of treading carefully through the wreckage to examine the person it's exposed, society shoots flaming, hate-ridden arrows past our non-existent defences, while they hide behind their fake imperfections, and the inevitable happens. Brick by painstaking brick, we rebuild our walls, all the while dodging the insults that are hurled at us from behind stronger defences than ours could ever hope to be. Their walls are built with prejudice as the cornerstone, littered with intolerance, reinforced with ignorance, and the slits in the walls that they spit abuse from are composed entirely of cowardice. Our walls will never be that strong... unless we join them, and build our own castle of hate and malice.

For once, I think, society should take its own advice.

Thursday, 10 October 2013

Six word story

We had to write six word stories in English today. (We're doing short story writing in English. It's great).
The result?:

Broken girl for sale: scars included.


Monday, 7 October 2013

A something I had to write in English class once...

The perfect, unbroken stillness hovered in the shimmering air – palpable; tangible. A gentle evening breeze caressed my cheek as I gazed towards the far horizon, on fire with magnificent shades of pink, orange, blood red and fading blue. Higher in the sky drifted wispy white clouds, fragile, yet majestic in their own right, and tinged magenta at the edges. Enveloping me was a sweet scent that was hard to place; all I knew was that it was clear, pure and heavenly. As I sat on a velvet soft cushion of grass, the mountains seemed to rise around me – not threateningly, but as if to protect and comfort me.
From within the deep silence, a soft voice floated out delicately. ‘Ella?’ It did not seem to disturb the tranquillity of the gorgeous evening, however. If anything, it enriched it. The voice was low and gentle, musical and lilting – it made me smile, and, the same as most other times I heard it, I was so absorbed in its music that I forgot to respond. ‘Ella?’ The voice called my name again, and this time I turned to see him, a tall figure standing behind me, the only thing that could make this day more wonderful than it already was. He had his hands casually tucked in the pockets of his jeans, and a simple, easy smile played upon his lips. His curly brown hair flopped uncooperatively in his face, stopping just short of his eyes. His eyes – bluer than the midday sky and swirling with a beautiful magic of their own, they sparkled like the sun reflected off the sea on a brilliant cloudless day. Those eyes could make my heart pound so fast that it threatened to burst out of my ribcage.

‘I knew I’d find you here,’ he smiled, his words like a symphony in the beautiful evening stillness. ‘Leith,’ I began, but before I could continue he covered the ground between us in two steps, the grass springing back to cover his footsteps. He lowered himself down beside me and we slipped into comfortable silence, watching the breathtaking scene before us. The mountains rolled towards the horizon, the clouds hung lazily in the sky and the brilliant sunset painted the sky in every possible shade of pink and red. I was just thinking that this day could not be more perfect, when Leith slowly, shyly, slid his hand into mine.

Saturday, 5 October 2013

"It is foolish to tear one's hair with grief, as though sorrow would be made less by baldness."
~ Some random guy who I really want to quote but whose name has been lost to me in the swirling abyss of the internet.